Thank you Gandolf and everyone, I do feel so much better – but I do realize that it may be short lived and I will have a dip and must be careful not to do so much. Is (J) deteriorating?

Not as much as you think as her husband was there – she worries a lot though. You will be OK now – healthwise because you are taking a break which you do need. They will look after you. You are greatly loved and must remember that in all your down times.

Thank you.
Is there an answer to my question this morning? Why am I having such a time with my health when I should be doing so much?

You are learning a valuable lesson (M). That is to understand humankind, you have to experience the woes and ills yourself. No one ever escapes some kind of disability.