My life is definitely less complicated now – things seem to be sorting themselves out without too much hassle; all ready for my writing – wish I had more confidence in myself to be able to bring down what you want me to write.
Is (N) on to something with the apple?

Yes, the music has told him to carry on with what he is doing. It’s all about the vibration of the sounds and not always how it comes out.

What is it about my family in general that sends me in such a spin. Even something positive like last night?

Your relationship is very varied with each member so don’t think of them as a collective whole. Only certain members have difficult pasts.