(M) this is a special message to you from Lyla.
You have felt my presence recently. At last you are feeling better and coming out of the fog. You have learnt a great deal.
What you would like to do is to really tell people what you are doing and who you are – (N) too. You have come a long way, in that the way you think, feel and behave are a million miles away from when you were younger. It has to be understood by you (and (N)) that most people (even people on the Path) do not realize, and will never realize, who you are and what you represent.
All you can do is to get up each morning and give what you can, never feel you have failed in any way. People will only hear you when they are ready. There will come a time when you WILL get audiences that will listen to your wisdom, not quite yet, but it will come.
A lot of what I have said applies to (N) too. You are both from Higher Planes and very far removed from what most people understand. But the time will come when you will be really heard. Just keep doing your best till then.