This is Eleanor – you are asking about what happens when you die (M). You have transcended many obstacles on our journey through this life. Not all, but most of your lessons have been well learnt. Your big lesson, which keeps appearing in your life now is total acceptance of the ups and downs you deal with – let things go.
You need to Meditate more, you see what happens when you do. As a High Being you are on Earth to reflect to others what they need to learn too. You are completely selfless and would help anyone in distress. Everything that is yours belongs to anyone who needs it.
Please, We implore you both, not to be concerned with your deaths – they will come soon enough. Embrace Life on Earth and observe its complexities.
Bring Joy and Happiness into the Lives of Others. The Path will always be there to give you focus.