Emmanuel here – True happiness comes from within, it doesn’t depend on what you have.

Meditating on the Light and Sound is a case of balance. If you are not Meditating on both the Energies mostly about the same time then it affects the way you view things.

The more you Meditate on the Light then you will tend to analyze – the more you Meditate on the Sound the more you will let things be. You need both to be a well rounded Spiritual person.

(N), you are simply learning how to let things be more by listening to the Sound. As soon as we think you are ready then the Light will return.